thoughts about anger

I was shocked (shocked, I say) when someone said I was filled with unexpressed anger. Me? Nice me? This was, of course, many years ago, but I still remember the shock and amazement and the taste of denial in my mouth when he told me that. Then I began to study emotions, I learned about something called passive-agressive behavior. It was hard to keep the concept straight in my mind and that is and always has been a signal to me, that I need to learn more. At first, of course, it was simply a challenge. Why couldn't I remember those things about passive agressive behavior and misdirected anger. It sounded simple when it was explained to me, yet five minutes later, I couldn't repeat it back. I spent years in therapy on many, many issues, but the passive agressive issue was one of the real "biggies".

Today, I can still see it in others more easily than I see it in me. But thanks to the homework I've done, I can translate that into the knowledge that I too am holding anger and I too can misdirect it passively. Here is where I find myself today. See what you think.

One is dangerous when one is passive with anger.

The more passive one is, the more harm can be done.

Anger not directed finds new targets. ------ every time.

When those around you are harmed, look first to self for the crime because then you truly know not what you do.

You know only discomfort and pain.

To not do
or
Not to do
to
Want.....
Perchance to Dream.

The passive agressive person creates a not doing as a way of feeling the dream of power.

All that is needed is the love of self to release the anger

It is only when the anger is expressed correctly and directed rightly that it releases joy and truth. Then there is room for more love to come in.

A poem I wrote recently that pertains somewhat to this, it's about searching our past

Time traveler

ride

the emotions

backward in time

to refuel

to relive

to realize the past

refresh and relieve

open to the future

the emotions bear the traveler

through

anger, pain, joy, fear, love,sadness